Unafraid

I don't really make specific new year resolutions, instead I usually assess the things I have achieved over the past year, where I am now and where I want to be.  For the last six weeks or so, I have had a line of the song Winter Wonderland constantly running through my head: 'To face unafraid the plans that we made.'  I have sung these words in my mind (much to my annoyance) for so long, but this week I finally realised why.  It is because I need to be unafraid.  This surprised me at first because I didn't think I was afraid of much, but the more I thought about it, the more I realised I was wrong.  Fear has been holding me back.

I am afraid people may get the wrong impression of me.
I am afraid to see myself in photos.
I am afraid I'm not a good enough mother or wife.
I am afraid of upsetting others.
I am afraid when I teach at church.
I am afraid to start selling the things I make.
I am afraid to fail.
I am afraid people think I'm unhealthy due to my weight.
I am afraid that what I say/think isn't interesting to others.
I am afraid of...

...oh, the list goes on.  The list needs to stop.  I can be brave for my children, my husband, by beliefs, my friends.  I need to be brave for me.  I know who I am, I know that I am loved.  I know that I can change. This is the year I shall 'face unafraid.'